One Week, Two Days

Last night was the first night I slept in the guest bedroom downstairs instead of the recliner chair.  I was very frustrated yesterday, feeling a little sorry for myself, and started thinking about what did I do?  I don't feel like I was making much progress, I hurt, I still have all my drains, I don't feel good, I am tired of walking like a zombie, blah, blah, blah.  I looked back over the past few years and have just always bounced back from everything sent my way.  I was back to work in 2 weeks after the mastectomy, I only missed treatment days for chemo and some days even went back in the afternoon to finish out the day.  I have no experiene at being this slow to recover and do not know how to respond.  I understand this procecure was 8 hours of surgery, but after a week you would think things would be on the heal - right?  So, I go on-line - boy was that a mistake.  All I could find were posts about all the things gone wrong with TRAM flap.  Ugh!!!!   - then I read some more information that says it will take 2-3 weeks just to feel a little normal, then 6 weeks to really be ready to return to work, maybe, and it could take up to a year to get back to where you were before surgery.  All of this is with a weakened abdomen and always being aware of what you are doing so not to get a hernia.

So, after having a pretty darn good sleep in bed (not much moving around), up at 6:00, drained my tubes, made a cup of coffe, I have already having a better morning and will try to take the pressure off of myself to be superwoman and to take care of myself.  I do believe by the 21st I will get clearance from Dr. Logan to travel south, and then it will continue to be recovery in a little warmer weather and instead of sitting in the living room, I will suffer by sitting pool side under the shade of a palm tree!

Bring on the day - I am ready.