One More Little Stitch

I have found one learns so much when they are involved in a major medical issue.  I know more about breast cancer and treatment than I would ever think.  Now the reconstructive surgery has educated me more.  I last saw the nurse at Dr. Logan's office the last of October and she was suppose to look for and remove any stray stitches.  I actually found one and pulled it out while she was looking for tweezers and that was all she really did.  I found her to be rather uncomfortable looking closely at my reconstructed nipple which in reality looks rather perfect and odd.  So, as time as progressed there are numerous stitches that are not dissolving and so I have gone into nurse mode.  But, let me tell you it is very ackward trying to pull the stitch with tweeters and then take my very tiny and very sharp sissors to snip the stitch so it will pull out.  I currently have one stitch left out of about 5 of them and that puppy is on the bottom side of my new mega-nipple and I cannot see it without the use of a mirror and the thought of using sharp sissors in an area I cannot see except backwards in a mirror is not very comforting so that stitch is still there.  it does help that I have no feeling in that area so if I do nip myself it may bleed but it will not hurt.  :)  I do go back to see Dr. Logan one more time on the 12th of December and it worse comes to worse I can leave that last one until then and he can pull it out. 

I do wish he had reduced the reconstruction a little more but it is so much better than before that I really can't complain and I will not go through another surgery just to do a little tweaking again.  I will ask if I lose weight overall will I lose in that breast which is really just belly fat.  I have googled it (because that is what I do) and there is conflicting information about yes or no.

It is time to get ready for work as I am in Centreville and then in Berrien this afternoon so I will try to come back and write more later today or tomorrow.  

Two Days in a Row

After being so down for so long I decided to put a positive attitude into action.  I woke up Monday morning, put on my workout clothes, did some easy stretches, and then after my coffee went down to the treadmill and did 20 minutes.  Not a long time, not a hard walk, but 20 minutes.  Tuesday morning I got up, had my coffee, put on my workout clothes and went to SMC and did the BodyPump class at 6:30 and it was a great workout.  All my muscles were shaky and there were some things I opted out of doing and those reps I did were with very light weights.  I will do some stretches through the day to keep that area moving and then I have a massage at 2:45 p.m. today - wow!

I had some oatmeal wtih blueberries for breakfast and find the less I eat the better I feel so I am working on that.  I am still eating but small amounts thru the day so it does not blow up my stomach or at least make it feel that way. 

I go to have the bandage changed and hopefully removed so the stitches can finish healing in the open air.  I do need to go bra shopping again and try to find some really, really, comfortable bras that do not leave marks across my reconstruct.  I don't like the Lane Bryant ones I bought and will try a different style.  I am also not a DDD on the right side so it should be easier to find some options.  I probably am still a DD and a D depending on the style of bra.  So now that I have shared, I think I will go finish dishes, and then stretch it all out.

I hope everyone makes the decision to go vote and express yourself.  Otherwise, a few people get to make really big decisions for us all.

A Better Day

I am sitting in the living room watching Food Network after watching the Bears win big.  I am feeling a little more positive than some of my past blog entries.  I think I will take advantage of the time change, set out my workout clothes and hit the treadmill in the morning instead of going into work at 6:00 a.m. which I fear I may do because I will be up, awake, and ready.  Then Tuesday, since we are closed, I will go in to SMC and take Michele's 6:30 body pump class.  I also will set up my area for yoga and begin to do my stretches and exercises again to see if I can regain some flexibility that I when I was doing my physical therapy. 

So, I will report back so you know how I am doing.  What I do know is lying around is not making my abs better, and my back is beginning to hurt more again as well.

I go back to see the nurse on Wednesday morning and hope the healing is going well.  I have not really seen the scars yet and am not looking forward to that portion.  I was hoping he was going to take a large section of the skin out but I can tell from the bandages that did not happen.  I am ready to be over all of this and move on.  I know the abs will always be an issue but I need I make the most of what I have, I can't go back, and then get to be the best me I can be with my limitations.  I have a lot of life to look forward to, I have a home I love, family I cherish, a sense of self that I want to experience.  I want to do an actual written bucket list and then experience everything on that list. 

So, do I have you motivated and pumped and ready to do it all?  I now just need to walk into the kitchen and check the dryer.  I might even pop some popcorn as my Sunday evening meal.  That was the family tradition in the Glynn household - our Sunday evening meal was popcorn and something sweet.  

Here is to a new tomorrow!