What a Great Day

Maybe it is all in my head and that is okay. I am feeling wonderful.  Chemo is over and it was fast and not a sad time at all to say goodbye to my nurses.    Came home and had a visit from an old friend and we cried and laughed and shared memories for 9 hours.   Had a good burger from Inn Betwen and a bottle of red wine.  Then I went to bed and slept until 7:00 a.m this morning.  Unheard of and no I was not drunk (one small glass of wine is all I had)  But I actually snuggled in and didn't get up until 7:45.   I feel so renewed and ready for life.  Now maybe tomorrow the fatigue will hit (which is usually when it does) but today I will enjoy my energy.  I am already planning on my healthy eating and beginning to workout a little more.  Green tea, fresh oranges, dry toast, one egg in olive oil.  Yum.

It is weird that on December 31st there is a thunderstorm happening outside.  I would like to soak in the hot tub before the ND game today but not in the lighting and rain.  I don't want to press my luck too much.  :-)

I plan to take a photo tomorrow - January 1st and then a photo the 1st of every month to come just to track my look.  See my hair grow and see if my patchy face improves and hopefully lose weight too.  I could do with a 25 pound reduction.

Well, enough for today, enjoy every moment,  Life is Good.

Today is the Day

It seems like it has taken forever but got here in a flash.  Chemo started Thursday August 19th and today, December 30th, I will receive my last of 16 treatments.  I can say the end is here just in time because I feel like my body is falling apart, and the weekly treatments are beginning to take their toll on my entire being.  I am so ready for the passing of each new day toward a healthier toxic free body but the process was necessary to help secure my well being in the future.  This is one last time I will NOT be sad about like yesterday.  

The Day Before

Treatment and all through the house, not a creature was stirring not Joe or his spouse.   Okay, so I am stirring but no one else is.  The house is cold so I need to turn up the heat.  I have been feeling stressed but I think it is a combinatio of things including retirement and people leaving the office.  My fingers and toes are better and again I think it is the B-6.  My nose is the same but my BP is still up and down.  I am falling apart.........but the end is near and soon things will all turn around and I will become the healthy, fit, 55 year old ready to take on a half-marathon, Zumba, Yoga, and anything else thrown my way.  HeeHaw!

Last Tuesday in 2010

So the days count down but in the meantime I try to take care of business at work.  I did go to the drug store and got by Vitamin B-6 to help with the tingling and I think it has helped already.  My BP is still way up 150/84 but I will continue to monitor and let the New Year come in and see if I can't begin to regain control over it.  The worse that will happen is I will go see the doctor and get on BP medication.  I think it is a combination of everything and with a change in my diet/nutrition and get off my butt and exercise I will get better numbers.

It is going on 6:00 a.m. so time to hit the shower, dress in my jeans, and head to Centreville to say good bye to many people over there. 

Just Around the Corner

and the count down continues.  I am irritated at the numbness in my fingers and toes and then I realized by Vitamin B-6 has been gone for a few days and I never got more.  This morning I am off to Rite Aid and get some more B-6.  I think it made a big difference.  I felt better Sunday than I did Saturday and it is interesting how my body tells me what to do and not.  We met Shannon for breakfast before she left town, I did three full loads of laundry, picked up around the house, played with the new Christmas stuff, and went to bed about 9:00 pm feeling like I had an okay day. 

I am up and ready to start the week and see what adventure each day brings.  It is the best of times and the worst of times.........

The Day After

I think Christmas Day got the best of me - I didn't move from my chair all day.  I watched House Hunters for hours.  I was just feeling punk, eyes puffy, headachy.   I felt like this last Sunday too.  I am feeling better so far this morning, and will make myself get up and around and do some things.  I think some of this is mind over matter - if it matters to me I don't mind getting up and doing it.  :-)   I just made a joke. 

The numbness in my fingers and feet continues, my chest is numb and I think it is from the port use.  That comes and goes depending on my activity for the day.  I am plugged up at night so breathing through my mouth drying out my lips and throat, waking up, drinking water, and starting all over again. 

Wow, I am very whiny this morning.  I do like having an extra day after the Holiday to continue to enjoy being home.  Many times this is a back to work day.  Off to put a load of clothes in the washer......

Christmas 2010

We anticipate this day all year long and then it arrives and you are relieved when it is over.  I love watching the family all together just one night of the year to laugh, share stories, make memories, and take part it whatever is going on this particular night.  We went to church and watched Caiden in the Christmas program and memories of Carlos and Adam being young popped up like they were yesterday and I was mom and not grandma.  The years go fast and I know if you are 30 you don't think so - but be careful - you will wake up tomorrow and you will be 55.  Take nothing for granted, tell people you care about how you feel, have no regrets, and make the best choice you can at the time.  At the end of the day, just be a good person, no one can ask any more of you than that.

I know every day is a gift.  Oh, by the way - one more to go!!  Woohoo!