Anticipation

The end of chemo is so close I can see it in my head.  I only hope I am not in the 3rd arm of the clinical trial which continues with the BEVA.  I still have the big nose issues snorting out big scabs all the time and just feeling like I can't breath.........  I also really want a little more hair.  Now it has grown a little I am ready to see the color and see it even an inch long to see the difference.  I have not been wearing a hat at work this week and the reaction from co-workers and staff is interesting.  They are much more open to asking questions and talking about it - like when I took off my hat it was my signal that I was on the road to recovery when in fact I am just tired of wearing the hat.

Cancer is a very "elephant in the room" type of topic and personal for many people not wanting to share.  Everyone deals with it different - there is no right way or wrong way - just your way.

Last day of work this week cuz chemo and clinical trial drug tomorrow.  I also see Dr. Z.   I will also need to have echogram and EKG done next week.  I am putting together my question for Dr. Z to see where I go when treatment is done.