Snow Day

Seems like a good day just to hang around and do nothing.  I don't think I wrote yesterday but don't remember.  We went and did a little Christmas shopping and can say I did not enjoy it that much.  I was hot, could not breath and just felt all over exhausted.  I tend to believe I am just fine but in reality I am not in very good shape just from being inactive.  Right now I am real close to being in a bad mood and not sure why.  I look around the house and see piles of crap, Joe has bags of shredding and just lets sit and Bella gets into it and spreads it all over the house.  There are piles of mail, and just overall shit - excuse my French. 

I am ready to go through and do a clean out of lots of stuff and see if he even misses any of it.........UGH.........why am I so cranky?   Part of it is Elizabeth Edwards dying and being reminded that women are dying every day from breast cancer...and there are no guarantees.   The closer to the end of my treatment I get the closer I get to the journey of "will it come back".    I think a support group will be a good option after the first of the year - sounds like a need something.