10 Weeks and Counting

I actually had to count the weeks because I could not remember.  This is my third week back to work and it has been slow going but I am beginning to make progress.  I am always ready to be done at the office by about 4:00 but I have actually been more functional around the house after work.  I find that whether I lay done right after work or stay busy I feel about the same. 

It is very difficult to explain the feeling.  I have none in the middle of my abs and about two inches on both sides of my new "belly button".  It is numb from the incision to my rib cage and then surrounding the area it is tingling, sometimes stabbing like there is a plastic piece inside me, and then the tight, tight, tight, sensation.  I hope things continue to improve - when my stomach becomes "hard" it is very uncomfortable and feels like it is stretching my incision, my belly button, and my insides.  I am very careful not to lift or push to heavy because I do not want a hernia.  

I am seriously thinking about working out at 911 or joining SMC student activity center and begin slowly but adding some weight lifting.  My arms and legs have lost so much muscle tone........I also do not want to start gaining any weight and put any more stress on my body and losing weight and being more fit is all helpful in staying healthy.  I have made a point to be more active around the house and have been out in the flower beds working. 

I am still not at that point where I would say this has been a good decision but I do enjoy wearing clothes that show just a little cleavage and see something other than a hollow chest.  I also think after getting the tweaking done I will be more happy with the results as things even up and are balanced.  I don't know how much healing my abs will continue to do and I do think I am somehow just becoming less aware of the tightness and just accepting of the feelings.  But, I have to remember, months and not weeks, so it has only been 2-1/2 months.  Happy Tuesday everyone!