Week 13 and Counting

I meant to write this yesterday which would have been the actual 13th week but one day late is not too bad.  I can't say I am better this week than last week because progress is slow and I have resigned myself to the fact this may be as good as it gets.  I have constant tightness in my ab between my incision and my pubic bone and first thing in the morning it just feels like a very tight tummy but by day's end it is a little crampy and I am uncomfortable.  I have started just doing whatever I want with caution.  I am lifting a little more weight just being careful to use my overall muscles, I stretch when I can, and I try not to lie around as much which doesn't help except to make me fat. 

The wedding is this weekend so my focus is on that and not myself.  I just hope I can still fit into my dress.  I do have to say my girls have healed nicely and although the right side is still a cup size larger, I can see the possibility after the next surgery when he does some tweaking.  It is nice to have cleavage that is natural and I am not afraid to wear a lower top.  My bellybutton is still a little stretched and sore looking - I don't know because I still have no feeling in that part of my stomach.  There is a small band right in the center that is still numb and I would guess part of that will always be numb just because of the trauma is was under during surgery.  The scar continues to heal nicely and I massage in Palmer's Cocoa Butter with Vitamin E to keep it soft and reduce the irritation which I get from waistbands.  Now, if I could drop some weight - I know - just workout with Shaun every morning.......

I have a short week with the holiday on Monday and off on Friday.  I have meetings today starting at 9:00 a.m. and ending the day with a 5:30 pedicure so it is a full and busy day.  It makes it much easier to work with a schedule so full I don't have time to think or worry. 

I still see every day as a gift.  Yesterday was Marva's funeral.  Marva and I were married to brothers, Jesse and Pete and she was one of the funniest persons I know.  We were doing chemo at the same time and talking on FB.  She had lung cancer but did smoke her entire life.  She went into remission last fall but it came back in March and she suffered horribly and finally is now at peace.  Good bye my friend.   So many people around me are dying from cancer - but for the grace of god go I..........

Love, Laugh, Live!!!!!