12 Weeks Later, finally

It is interesting how relative things are.  I have been sick since last week with a sore throat, coughing, headache, and the coughing has really irritated my abs making them soooo sore.   All I wanted was to feel better so the only thing I had to deal with was my continued healing abs.  This morning I feel much better, less of a sore throat, less coughing, and no headache and my abs are tight but so much less a factor than before. 

It has now been 12 weeks or what is more appropriate, 3 months since surgery and I do feel a lot more improvement.  I am now optomistic that in 3 more months the pressure and tightness will be less and less an issue.  The tightness continues to play a part in my poor belly button not really healing - it is always a little pulled apart but since there is no feeling there (and may never be) it does not hurt but red and looks like it would be sore if I could feel it. 

I have gained back about 7 pounds and I am upset with myself.  I know I eat not because I am hungry but because I think I will eat something that will make me feel better.  Doesn't it make sense that if I have some chips or ice cream that will make my abs feel better?   So, yesterday I had to officially weigh when I went to the clinic in Cass and I was up 10 pounds (with all my clothes on) and I decided it was time to put action into place.  I know the chance of reoccurrence of breast cancer is higher if one is overweight, and does not take steps to stay active and eat healthy.  Every bit of junk, highly processed food I take increases my chance of revisiting all that I have been through in the last two years.  With that in mind, my eating last night changed drastically.  Instead of thinking those Lays chips will make me feel better, I saw them as a source of hurting me.  I ate some dried fruit (not the best but better than candy) and some venison. 

I have my whey powder on the counter to make my protein shakes in the morning to start my day with lots of fiber, some fruit, and some mornings to add some green (not this morning).  I will get some Shakeology when my other powder runs out.  I will go to Yoder's today and get some fresh salad fixing for lunch, and there is where I get my grass-fed beef (no hormones, etc.), and make the decision to feed my body healthy stuff.  Next will be more structured exercise.  I don't know I can do body pump but may try one class to see.  I know I can walk and maybe I can do some videos with modifications.  I won't know until I try. 

I am anxious to get back a little of me from a few years ago - that me who hiked the Grand Canyon three times and walked 60 miles in 3 days in the city of Chicago.   I am blessed and every day is a gift and I want to make the very most of it I can.